Misery.

All I want to do is die. Living in a 500 pound body without Dan is hell. I cant do anything, and all i get is hassle from everyone. I want to go anywhere but here. Someone told me I should try and get into a pool so I can not feel so heavy for a while. I have to find one. Being so big with him was wonderful. Without him... horrible. I want to be fat, eat, feed, make love, be loved, feel pretty... I want to be wit him!